that mood,

thisbrokendream:

you know that mood that you get into where you’re just feeling a little eh. you don’t know why, but you just feel like crap and nothing cheers you up. when all you want to do is cry because you are remembering all the littles things that cause you pain, when your brain seems to over think, when you start to over analyze situations and all you can do is cry?
well yeah, im in that mood. 

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4th Feb 2012 | 144 notes

why the fuck didn’t I read the letter my dad sent me on Christmas? im so messed up for that shit. he took the time out of his day to write it and I ripped it up and threw it in the trash as soon as I got it. but then again I know everything that comes out of his mouth isn’t genuine. he doesn’t even know me anymore. he knows the 11 year old girl he left for a new family. so fuck him. im glad I tossed it out. I am, right? the decision on whether or not to start a clean slate with my dad haunts me every fucking day. he hurt our whole family so bad that I don’t even want his last name to follow my first anymore…

17th Jan 2012

I understand Stephanie went to nursing school while raising a baby. shes soooo responsible & has such pretty hair. and this. and that. wtf does that have to do with ME? damn. im proud of her and everything but fuck… I do good shit too. everybody makes me feel worthless compared to her.

16th Jan 2012